As intelligent human beings we sometimes have a tendency to
ignore basic fundamental truths about life.
One being our instincts and how accurate they are most of the time. In my opinion, as we have become more and
more 'civilized' we have figured out how to ignore our animal natures for the
sake of logic. I particularly have a
tendency to ignore all that defies logic.
Love has and always will defy logic. Why would I, how could I fall in love in a
moment without a thought other than this.
I am in love. Frozen and in shock
completely unbidden. I never asked for this part. For so long I've been aware
of your existence and never noticed anything about it. One moment, one chance
meeting and I see nothing else. I feel like I'm insane. I am an intelligent, rational, pragmatic
creature that only on occasion commits to flights of fancy and fantasy driven
rhetoric. And when I do, I'm careful to
keep it contained. But this overwhelms
me and I can't hold it in not one second longer.
What are the rules of engagement when it comes to declaring
impossible, unrequited fairytale love?
In person, by love letter, over a near death experience. All can either take the path of enlightenment
or fall short to suffer the slow pangs of death by the mundane rudimentary
nature of our normal existences. But I
was never a stickler for normalcy. Normalcy feels like art without passion.
Just an empty shell of what could be. I'm rambling and stalling.
I hope this is taken with the utmost suspension of
disbelief. Because I don't believe I
have ever been so painfully honest as I am being right now for you.
I don't know you, yet what I feel . . . I am in love with
you and I know as surely as the sun will rise in the morning and set the
following night that I will love whoever I find you to be.
When you tell others of this foolish strange wordy woman
throwing herself at you shamelessly, please feel flattered. I beg of you to speak kindly of someone who
has never conducted herself like this before and try not to make it into too
big of a joke at my expense. I may be insane
but I stopped believing in fairytales a long time ago so I expect nothing more
than the knowledge that I was honest enough to tell you.
