I reached out my hand and met only air
I suppose it would've been nice
If someone had cared enough to at least slap it away
But no I met only air
I dream of my bed, so very tired from the day
But I see myself there alone and drag my feet to it
I reached out me hand and met only air
I didn't understand the nature of loneliness
I thought it was only felt by the weak
Those who let themselves be taken advantage of
I reached out my hand and met only air
Even a slap, there some strong emotion in hate
Indifference leaves nothing, not even a breath
Dispassion leaves less than nothing, not a trace
I reached out my hand and met only air
Why isn't there someone there
I pray, I share, I give and I care
And still I reach out and only touch air
How have I landed here in this place?
My only comfort are books
My only companion plans
I live to go to work, there are people there
And if I close my eyes and pretend just right
I can just convince myself
If I disappeared they would care
I reached out my hand and met only air
I don't know how to fix this
So far gone I can't back out
So far gone I don't even know how to anymore
I have this spot, this place, the tower that I view all from
Never truly understood and never truly appreciated
What can it do for me, whispers in the back of my head
How can I use it to make me feel good
Circles in my mind
Maybe if I jump, it will all end
No one will catch me, no one would dare
And if they did they'd only use me
Always only use me, for what they want
Never give back, never really see me
Just what they want from me
It's so stupid, it just wants to make you happy
Make it love you and it will do whatever you want
You never have to give back, you never have to care
Just pretend, it'll believe you, it always believes you
Maybe if I jump the voices will stop,
Maybe if I jump, they will let me fall
I'll die with the truth
If nothing else, I'll have the truth
Maybe if I jump. . .what reason is there not to
To soft to love, to tough to hate
Maybe if I jump. . . . there will be someone on the other end
Maybe if I jump, .. someone will see me.
Maybe if I jump .. . love will be on the other end
Maybe if I jump . . . it won't matter anymore
I reached out my hand and only met air
Time to accept
This is all that will ever be there
From Perilous Flight
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